mood	:	sympathetic
	music	:	Cascada - Every Time We Touch

Everything I am to say here is compleately and all about what caused my unhappyness these past two weeks.I will try not to get to into it so I'll just jump the gun.These have been my last honest to God truth feelings for these past few weeks...

These last week or two has been stressful for me. I've had the ending of my Sophmore year in highschool,term paper,family issues,and then theres everybody in the group. It made no sence to me why everybody was getting so riled up adn upset, and it only added on to my worrys and stress.

I didnt want any of you worrying about me though so I hid it in and I remained the Destany you all know.After a month or two of this I finaly caved in and caught the beginnings of phnamonia.I went to school even though I had it,promiseing myself I'd let it trake over over spring break. Nobody seemed to call me,not one soul,and due to the fact that nobody called me anyways(except my mum),I becan to sucumb to the fact that maybe people just got board of me and only wanted my art.

I decided that I should come on,just for abit,to see how everybody was doing.When I came on there were no hellos,except for Anka-Kun,and Yuuka-Chan,and that made me evern more upset,digging myself a deeper hole,and still I heald it in.

I exploded one night and let it go,and began to heal. When Kefka-Sama had her birthday countdown she couldnt get ahold of Stezer-San...~wacks stezer lightly with newspaper~((^^; SOrry)) I tried to keep her company,and didnt even know if I was doing anywhere and effective job,and I never gave up. I got alittle more emotional and went alittle crazy at my friend on the phone about it,but I never told her a single thing that I read on her Kefka-Sama's journal though.((I respected you.^^; )) I felt rather infirior,considering she wanted to speak with Stezer-San,and I eventually decided maybe I should let it go.

I heald it in.

I spoke with Yuuka-Chan about it all and she told me that she had been looking around for me and asked around,and nobody seemed to care.Yet again,I was crushed.((NO MORE DISCUSION ABOUT THIS!WHATS DONE IS DONE!^^; ))

After that I couldnt take it.I had been in an emotional wrek for afew months now,holding it in that nobody seemed to care,and I felt like dieing,literaly.So,I decided to just stay away from it all,the fighting and the un-careing features,then thats when it all kicked off and it was told.

Guys,whats done is done and I still love you all. If Yuuka-Chan lied to me or not, I still love her to peices.Kuja I love,Kefka I love,Stezer I love,Garnet I love,Vincent I love,Zidane I love,Anka I love,Mikoto I love,Cid I love,Rufus I love.I love you all,and if you decide to not talk to eachother for any reason,thats all up to you,but this Destany is good and solid on her word.That she will love you all forever and I will never let you go...YOU CANT GET RID OF ME NOW! 8D I love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love you ALL! ((Haw haw my Kefka-Sama...I took you quote and swiched it! ~giggles~))

I must say,I'm feeling better and inbetween all those terrible incidents there is good.^^ So dont think I'm rantong about the bad. I'm just explaining what happened to me.

Thank you for reading...

Love,apologeticly and compleately,

Your Destany
A.K.A. Bethany...